Id Reloaded

finally i am home…after a whole year of hardwork. Starting off with debates, then tfnet n tagging along is cya. It pays for all those moments, finally getting home. Being at home n actually feeling at home is the best thing anyone could offer me. I rarely had the chance to actually sit back n relax while enjoying my not-so-lovely life. Next year is my final year in high school. Kinda missing teenage life. Full of dramas. High school is not such a bad place after all. It"s fun n I definitely learn a lot from it. And I do mean A LOT!!! I don"t only learn things like Algebra and Chemistry but I also learn things that will guide me thru life. I learnt about valuing FRIENDSHIP, FEELINGS, and many more. High school is a great place to be. Regrettably, I only realise this today. And next year wiil be my final year. One more year, will it be ENOUGH??? ~sigh~

y dun i like da girl i see?
da one who”s standing rite in front of me…
y dun i think b4 i speak?
i should”ve listen 2 dat voice inside of me…
i must b stupid,
must b crazy,
must b out of my mind…
2 say da kind of things i said last nite…

mirror mirror hanging on da wall..
u dun hv 2 tell me,
who”s da biggest fool of all…
mirror mirror i wish u could lie 2 me…
n bring my baby back 2 me…

mirror mirror,
lie 2 me..
show me wut i wanna see…

y did i let u walk away?
wen all i had 2 do was say i”m sorry…
i let my pride get in da way…
n in da heat of da moment,
i was 2 blame…
i must b stupid,
must b crazy,
must b out of my mind…
now in da cold light of da day…
i realised…

if only wishes could b dreams
n all my dreams could come true…
there would b two of us standing here in front of u…
if u could show me,
dat sumone,
dat i used 2 b…
bring back my baby…

to me….

~haih,pnat…pening kepale….susah tol!!!xde idea ah nak wat pantun ntok final presentation esok!!~
~huArgh!!!!~
~when love hurts,it won”t work…or rather not,it”s not love after all….~

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x tAu aH,
sjAk duE tiGe haRi niH hapPy sMcm jE..
cAm cArefRee jE…
mAybE lA..
mAybE jE,x sUre pOn..
i”M gRowiNg uP!!!
hUhu,sumTimEs rS cAm nAk jD kCk bLek…
nAk mAen2 eVeryDay,x yAh fAce pRobs…
gRowinG uP iS tOugh..
gEttInG tHru uR liFE”s bIggEst cHallEngE..
riTE nOw,
lAgu mAriAh caRey “sHAke iT oFf” tU sGt lA mEAninGfuL…
gOtTa shAkE iT oFf mAn…
x tAu aH..
i”M awAre dAt mY liFe iS cHAngiNg dRAstiCAlly…
iT”S qUitE oBviOUs,rEAlly..!!
wiSh i cOulD gEt mY oLD seLf bAck,
nOt dAt i”M nOt hAppY wiT tHE liFE i”m liVinG nOw..
it”S juSt…
dUnnOlAh..
wuTeVer pOn,
liFe gOes oN aiTe?
i”M nOt jUst gOnnA siT n lEt iT bOre mE..
hAve tO aDd soMe spIce iN iT..
yEah!!!
gUrl-POweR!!![x pAsal]

hAha,i”M QuitE iN a gOod mOod ritE noW…
wiTh mY poNytailS mOvinG alonG wiTh mE whIle i”m rOckInG tO thE beAt…
tOtaLLy iN a gOod mOoD…
nEveR fElt bEtTeR….
sEpteMber”s bEen a mEss tO me…
iT stArteD bY mE brEakiNg uP wIt mY bF…
then,bY havinG lOads of fInalES…
CYA+TfNet+pErsOnaL rElatIonsHipS too…
cAn”t waiT fOr evEythinG tO enD…
n aLso fOr evErytHinG tO tuRn bAcK tO nOrmaL…
oH..
nOt fOrgEttinG,
thE fInal ExAm”s cOming tOo..
dUh..
fInals,fInaLS n mOrE fInaLS…
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it”s 4 o’clock in the morning rite now…
damn tired,man…
haf to finish sum work…
come to think of it,my job”s done long before but maybe cam malas nak tido now kot…
x tau ah nak tido ke x…
all my friends are getting ready to shut their eyes…
travelling into a deep n comfortable slumber…if u consider sleeping on the carpetless floor in an air-conditioned room full of computers and chairs comfortable,that is…
how useless could ur life get?
sumtimes, it”s a waste of time being too sensitive,rite?
i”ve been there n i”ve done that…
u just have to let go if things r getting out of hand…
set it free rather than having destroy ur life…
my life is diminishing,wut more could i ask for??
haih…
penat la idop nih kan??
sumone”s got to agree wit me…
sumthing”s got to give…

i think i still am not letting go of certain things…not yet…
ntahla, cam x ready nak lepaskan lagi…
no matter how i said to myself that i have ALREADY let it go…
tp actually still ade lagi…
cane ah?
can”t understand lah…

maybe little by little i will let it go…
eventually…

How i love music!!
oh, damn much..
can”t live without them…
i”m crazy about music…!!!
Dammit, i am thanking the man who created music n introducing it to the world…
duRh….
dunno wut i”ll be without music…
i mean it…
without music,everything will be damn BORING!!!

ok,
about the song by bow wow,
let me hold u…
aww…
it”s so damnnnn sweeet…

then there”s this song by missy elliot…
lose control..
it”s rippin’ man..
it moves me to the dance floor automatically…

get it poppin’ by fat joe…
nice…

here i go again by mario..
shit, this song tells of a guy..
he seemed desperate…
but,dunno…

some romantic but catchy songs are also my faves…
like…
>we belong together
>behind these hazel eyes
>listen to ur heart
>how to deal(damn,loved this song!)

u noe how guitars seemed sooo right in some songs..
yeah,these are the ones that i love…
>wake me up when september ends (fuckin’ love this song!!!)
>cold (loved its v.clip)
>american idiot
>feel good inc
>here without you
>only one (only it uses MAJOR violin attack which is kinda sweet)
>everything burns
>mr.brightside
>helena!!!! (freakin’ love the guitarist…he made it so goth like)
>i”m not ok
>pieces
>we”re all to blame
and lots more…

pop songs are cool..
they”re like so-so but i love them just the same…

tOnitE…
mlM niH caM fUll oF emOtionS skEt,
ntAhla…caM cOmfoRtablE wiTh mYselF…
weiRd huh??
mAybE mlM niH i fiNallY rEAlisE whO i Am mySelF…
hAha,
kiNda pAthEtiC,dOn”t u tHinK…?
hEysH,
suPposeDlY,
duNnO laH…
eRm,
sAjeR…waNnA teLL thAt tOniTe seEmeD tO be mOre thAn JUST anOthEr niTE…
fOr mE, thAt iS…
niTey niTe iD….
slEep tIte…

fUh..lEGa skEt bRu abEs bLAja n eDiT aDObe pHoToshOp nGan iJat..pNat sEy..pAdaM bAcKgroUnd nTok sUpeR imPosE lAh,ntaH papEr lG…mLm niH ijAt cOnfiRm nAk dEra akU lG…sGt lA pNAt…hOmewoRk x siAp lG…abES aRh cEkgU nGamOk…iSh,mEdan niAgE lG 6 hAri jEk…sO prEparAtiOn kEne gEmpAk…kiHkiH…liFe akU samE jE evErydAy..x SaBar nAk bAliK cUtiH,hUhu…naK g JeJLn…eYSh…sedEyhnYe ciTe jEpuN yG iJAt tGk kT sebLah aKu niH…evEn tHouGh x pHm tP tAu lA yG ciTE nyE sdEy,isk2…nAk baliK sErioUshiT!!miSS hEll umA…x tAhaN…iKh,mY viSitOrs dAh samPai…

bYe~

sNarnYe bLoG niH x dE keNe menGEne nGAn kOdi pOn…
sAjE jE,cAmbESt jErH cKp wOrd kOdi tUh…
pAsniH jGn adEr oRg naK x pAsAl2 tEraSe kOdi pLak!!!
nAnTi kUtuK akU dLm bLOg laGi…
kESiaN akUh…hUHhu…uiSy,i hAve tO watCh mY eVery woRd…
dAmMit,cUtiH niH buRn lAGih…
mEDaniAgE lA plAk…lEceH tOl lA….
dAhla kL jErEbU nOw niH…iNdeKs kLanG vAllEy fiVe hUNdrEd soMEthIng….
sEriOushIt akU riSau….
fAmilY akU kT umA tUh….sEb bAek x tErOk sGt lA…stiLL lEh naMpaK oRG kT umAH dEpan…
kT pUtraJAya suME skOol kEne cuTi….
hAiH,i’M dAmN woRriEd!!
tAkoT plAk naK blEk kL…tP x Leh…dAh plAn mCm2 mAa….
iSh,bOsan siOtt…
aKu kEne siApkAn kEje iJat jAp…
~bErsamBoNg~

i dOn”t sEem tO unDerStanD cErtaiN pEopLe laH…
dUnnO wHethEr dIorG niH siNceRe oR mMg x De kEje oR x SenGajE…
maYbE diOrg jAki nGan kiTorG kOt…
x kEsaHla aPe pOn alAsaN diOrG tP caM x pUaS haTi bAnyaK!!!
i”M nOt tHat mAd iF wE aLL yG stArT dULu…
bUt tHe pROblEm iS,wE”vE dOne oUr BEST tO rEstrAiN oUrsElvEs fRom sTaRTinG a FighT…!!!
x CukOp lG kE???!!!
eiH,kAlo iKot haTi…gEraM bToL lAh!!!
x pAsAl nAk gAdO…kAlo bTOl nAk gAdO,cAkaP aH!!!
iSh,x BAeK marAh…naNTi cEPat tUe…
dAhlA kaNtoI kUtuK kItorG!!
plEAsE aH,kAlo pOn nAk waT kEje2 x sEhaT caMtUh,cOvER lAh skEt…
daHla tU…
kItE kaN kaWAn…x bAek aH gAdO2…
eXcEpT fOr a FeW pEopLe lAh..
x dI cOnsidEr kaWAn pOn..
uMor pOn bErbEza…
hEhE….
daH aH,tAa…